It is a sad and solemn day in my world.
I had to let a nice young man go. He has a good personality and is very polite but when I hired him, I made clear that it was important for his English skills to improve during his probation to keep his job. I have watched and most of his time is spent watching movies, playing games, and text messaging. I have at times impressed upon him to get more involved with the customers and pay attention to their needs. Sadly, he has not improved, and Mai or I have had to remain because the customers could not be understood by him. He has made mistakes and has cost me money in fines, but that has nothing to do with me letting him go. I sometimes get the impression that he does not want to be here. I need someone who can do the job in both English and Vietnamese, and interact with the customers. Sadly he cannot and so I have to let him go. I have another person starting tomorrow. Hopefully he will be the one that I have been looking for.
Even harder for me is saying goodbye to Khuyen. She is very special to me and losing her is like losing a daughter…. maybe even
more. You may remember from past blogs that I had convinced her to come with me to NhaTrang in hopes of her having a better life. She seemed happy and everything went fine for a long time until she found a boyfriend. Pressure put on her to have time away when we needed her began to cause conflicts. Mai was having difficulties accepting the change, and I also had some issues with the new situation. Mai has been delegated the direction of employees, and I will only step in if needed. I never understood how bad it was getting until too late. Emotions became involved and it is now at the point that Khuyen has to go. There is no way she can be here. Tomorrow I have to say goodbye to a very special gal. I do not think there is anybody who can replace her. I have a deep sense of guilt of having brought her here with the best of intentions. She is now headed off to an uncertain future for a lower paying job and no free room and board. Her boyfriend seems to me to be a very demanding person and it seems like she was forced into situations that have caused all of this mess. I now worry for her future with this man.
It is later now and there is an unexpected development. The hotel next door has learned of my firing of my night guy and has created a party for him across the street. I would love to get a picture, but at the moment I have no camera. I know he is friendly with them but I also know he has talked with them about business matters that were private. I guess that is OK…. Young people are like that. There is very little looking into future consequences from their actions.
Tomorrow will be the hardest day. My heart is congested with the fear of how I will react when my beloved Khuyen leaves. It is truly like a daughter leaving the home for the first time. Perhaps I am blessed to experience this having no children of my own. It is probably a growing experience for most human beings, but a painful one. Now….. how long does it take for the swelling of possible tears behind the eyes take before they go away……..?? Vietnam offers such pleasure….. And pain.. People here are so loveable that a person cannot help but get emotionally tied.